My Mother's Day's

My Mother's Day's for the past two years have never been something special unlike other women. We celebrate my mom, my sister, and my sister in law. But I am the mother who is never remembered. Never celebrated. It hurts and to me I treat it like any other day so that I don't have to feel sad or remember my own child. Which is awful I know. But it's the easiest thing for me. It's the one day where I feel the loneliest. Besides the time period where my baby would have been born. And I would much rather go and forget it all. I cannot do that anymore.